Trust...Patience...How to actually walk by faith...
Homeschooling can be so tough, because I am so indoctrinated in the standards of the world! It is so hard for me sometimes to stop focusing on what the "state" would require for my kids to know. And because of that, my kids can suffer under the pressure of me and my standards!!!
So, now I am going back to focus on God's standards for education. I should have been doing that all along, but thanks to God's grace, He is leading me back to what is important!!
I am including here a blog post from another site that I did last year. As you can see, I didn't do what I said I was going to do...obviously!!! What happened????? But, thankfully, it's not too late to go back and learn from my mistakes.
I lost it! Now the question is, can I get it back? I lost my vision for our homeschool this past year, and I stumbled in the dark, groping around like a blind person. While I was groping in the dark, I stubbed some toes, hit some walls, and got pretty bruised up. My kids got bruised up, as well! My next question is this: WHY? Why did I lose my vision? Was my world around me so dark that I couldn't see? NO! Were the circumstances of our HS so dark that I couldn't see any light? NO! So, what was it that caused me to be so blind? I CLOSED MY EYES!!! My eyes of FAITH!! I stopped walking by faith! When I stopped walking by faith, I completely lost my vision. I no longer "saw" things from FAITH'S perspective, GOD'S perspective. I started looking at our problems and focusing on them instead of focusing on my vision, God's vision. And when I did that, I went completely blind!!
So, can I get my vision back? Yes, I can and the Lord is helping me do that. I know what our vision is for our family, our kids and our HS. Now how do I keep it? Habakkuk 2: 2-4 says, The Lord said, "Write the vision and engrave it so plainly upon tablets that everyone who passes may be able to read it easily and quickly as he hastens by. For the vision is yet for an appointed time and it hastens to the end; it will not deceive or disappoint. Though it tarry, wait earnestly for it, because it will surely come; it will not be behind on its appointed day. Look at the proud; his soul is not right within him, but the just shall live by faith." The Lord was speaking to Habakkuk about hard days coming. And during those hard days, He wants His people to REMEMBER the VISION!!!! To walk with their EYES OF FAITH!!! So much so, that He wants the vision written out in a way that will get the people's attention during all the chaos. Wow! How simple, but yet so profound!!
What is FAITH? Hebrews 11:1 says, "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." What am I hoping for in our HS? What is my vision? Faith is the ASSURANCE of those things!!!! Hebrews 12: 1-2 (amplified) says, '... let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance and that sin that so readily and cleverly clings to and entangles us, and let us run with PATIENT endurance and STEADY and ACTIVE PERSISTENCE the APPOINTED COURSE of the race that is set before us, LOOKING AWAY FROM ALL THAT WILL DISTRACT, TO JESUS, the Author and Finisher of our FAITH." That is how I lost it. I was distracted by all the setbacks, by all of MY standards not being met, etc., etc., etc. I took my eyes of faith off of my Savior, and put them on the god of academia. Oh Lord, please forgive me!!! Why am I so easily distracted? Why do I tend to forget the vision so easily? These are the questions that I'm going to have to get in the habit of asking myself on a regular basis. And I must remember that, "Without faith it is impossible to please God..." (Hebrews 11:6) Every time I lose my vision, I'm not pleasing the Lord. And all because I close my eyes of faith!
VISION! I've got to have it! I will have it and I will keep it, in JESUS NAME!!!